michaeljr915 (michaeljr915) wrote,

  • Mood:


I get paid a pretty decent salary to be bored out of my mind.
I've tried alleviating it.
I've taken in novels - which I then tear through at roughly a hundred pages per hour.
I've taken in my laptop - which becomes a pain in the ass to work on when I forget the battery charger and it runs out of power.
I've taken in a horde of roleplaying books and magazines in hopes I could get my own D&D (or other roleplaying system) game started.
I've downloaded a dozen game demos (most of which I've removed).
I've tried creating. Screenshot art, manipulations for signatures, writing poems or stories.
As I described to ~A(m)~ (no relation to female ~A~ or ~A2~) and haf, when I walk into the building, it's like my creative juices walk out.

It's rather frustrating.
On one hand, I'm glad to have a job.
On the other, I'm doing less in work than I was doing when I was home for ten months, helping with my dad, the family, the housework. I've also maintained my weight, even with a nightly walking regimen and a marked decrease in food consumption.
Although, with ~M~'s assistance, I re-realized that I'm a stress eater.
I hope she's doing okay...

I'm sitting here surveying the decent job I've done of cleaning between my bed, closet, and desk. I have twenty four books which I could read...
I have eight stories that I could finish or otherwise work on...
Fourteen PC RPGs which I could play...

I want to clean. Except when my brother gets home, and goes to bed, he bitches if I so much as sneeze or turn on the light if I drop something.
At least he's had his PC off for a few days, since the horrible grinding sounds its making are getting worse. I'd told him I'm not fixing it if it dies, and if he wants a new one, he needs to give me a payment - at least partial - on parts before I start looking, let alone ordering.

Last thing I want to say tonight is, I hope everything works out, ~L~.
  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.